"you have a great team!"

lloyd said that about about the ne comm.
huiping talked about that regarding the Kidz team.
it is true. the bulk of the ne commers are willing to go beyond the call of duty. they are great to work with, cooperative, fun.
and the kidz team - all i can say is that they are the best you can find. people who would think dream eat and sleep God, Kids and Ministry. People who are so faithful, even when the world crashes, they stay on. People who would take time to assess the club, come week after week, tolerate inefficiencies, because they love God and believe in this work. And people skilled by God in such a complementary way, that as a team we have a great gift-set. And people with such hearts that are full of love and foregiveness and grace, that after almost 7 years of working together, there is no resentment, bitterness, impatience. It is obvious we have been called together by God. It's obvious that God wants to do THINGS thru us.

but why aren't we soaring? there could be many things, but i realized one thing. i have not played MY part, my role properly. And if i don't, the body is less effective, not because of unwilling members, not for want of gifts and talents, but because with my apologetic and lazy leadership, i have set the ceiling for the team.

So enough of weak, apologetic leadership. Like what lloyd said, jesus wasn't an apologetic leader.
and i will stop looking to assess what is wrong, and what has fallen short of past glory, or who is mia, or who is down, or how hard things feel. i will pray and believe and ask, until his kingdom comes, his will be done. Until the Pentecost i have been yearning for comes, and dry bones come to life.
God, let us shine with your glory and for your glory.