morning already?

spent the night in tears. heart refined, sure of my burden and calling? i suppose. more so.

when i think about what i hoped to achieve for God, and failed, i feel sad.
but when i remember it's not the end, when i think about what God can achieve despite me, i feel glad.

i don't like learning difficult things, but it must be done. i don't enjoy persevering, but it must complete its work in me so that i can be mature and complete.

so learn i will, grow i shall.
and when i return, strengthened, i will run faster, jump higher.

Do you not know?

Have you not heard?

The LORD is the everlasting God,

the Creator of the ends of the earth.

He will not grow tired or weary,

and his understanding no one can fathom.

He gives strength to the weary

and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary,

and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the LORD

will renew their strength.

They will soar on wings like eagles;

they will run and not grow weary,

they will walk and not be faint.

isaiah 40:28-31

update 12:55 pm

crawled back upstairs, and God told me, not just isaiah 40:28-31. but Isaiah 40.

almost laughed thru the tears...

Comfort for God's People

Comfort, comfort my people,

says your God.
Speak tenderly to Jerusalem,

and proclaim to her

that her hard service has been completed,

that her sin has been paid for,

that she has received from the LORD's hand

double for all her sins.

Her hard service has been completed?

hehe... amen to that. suddenly it matters that it is already morning.

and it's a hazeless morning. somehow that matters too.

has this season finally come to a close?

Somehow, these verses feel like a temporary "well-done-good-n-faithful".

somehow i feel a strange new life, like the burdens are lifted.

somehow there's a funny joy in my heart.

haha.

i feel like being an usher, i wanna be a happy cheery usher. welcome everybody into the church, hand out bulletins, smile.

i feel like playing the keyboard (but it's been moved to serangoon =( ), i wanna practise hard and re-learn, and i've never forgotten my life theme... "i was made to praise you, i was made to glorify your name....i was made for you".simple, unsophisticated, ungrand, but mine. i wanna sing my heart out on the keyboard, unlimited by my vocal range or lung stamina, or english vocab.

i feel like bugging uncle chua to start alpha!

i feel like loving everybody slowly and fully.

i feel joy.

i feel shiny happy.

i hope i'm not just mad from lack of sleep.

look out of the window, tell me it's a brand new hazeless morning.