Away from Celeste

It isn't that hard waking up every hour to nurse.

It isn't that hard dropping everything and tend to her needs when she cries.

It isn't that hard having to change her diaper ever so often. (and i mean OFTEN. she has wet farts...)

What is really hard is to hold her while the doctor pricks her heel once again. 

To hear that the reading has gone up. 

To hear that she has to be warded. 

To sit at the hospital's registration counter, to hold her close and watch her sleeping peacefully in my arms, knowing that for the first time in 9 months, she's gonna be away from me. 

To see the spartan container that is to be her bed for a while, the harsh UV lights that will be her constant companion.

To walk away from the nursery without my baby in my arms.

I KNOW she's gonna be alright.

I just don't like being away from her.

And i don't like them drawing blood from her all the time.

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Please pray for Celeste, that her liver will develop perfectly, and her jaundice level will fall and normalise, that she won't have to be warded anymore.