Let this mark a new beginning

Apart from my burgeoning belly, my soul's been getting fat as well.

So fat it has taken over the pilot seat.

It has become too easy to explain away the need for sacrifices, it has become second nature to think rather than to pray.

I strain to hear His voice, but all i hear is my mind's chugging - logic, reason, eloquence, pride, affection...

This is a betrayal to the One who called me His woman, a betrayal to the One who said i was to be a spiritual being, to walk in the spirit, with my feet on the ground.

This cannot continue.

I wasn't created to be this, i wasn't saved to be this.

When my flesh is tyrannical, a food fast helps.

Now, i need a large dose of sacrifice, a spring-clean of my Google Reader subscription, and a better prayer and worship life.

That, and a lot of grace.

I'm just so thankful he didn't leave me be.