Bad Mood

I find it so high-handed and rude and unfair.
Feedback forms and surveys so frustratingly useless.
So kept-in-the-dark, so unsupported.
And everyone seems to be moving on to greener pastures.

If you appeared before me i'd scream at you for neglecting your kids.
If you appeared before me i'd question your resource allocation and unfair expectations.
If you appeared before me i'd kick you for starting it and leaving, and leaving for less than a noble cause.

But truth is, when you do appear before me, i'd just smile and make nice.

Damn.
Damn it all.
Damn me.
Lousy pushover.

do i need inspiration?
communication?
passion?
church camp?
a sabbatical?

o let this stupid mood pass.
is it possible to get pms while still breastfeeding?

i wanna go home and be with my baby.
but my husband is late and he's still not even on his way.
and i am hungry.

lousy lousy day.