YOWWwwwww!

Took Glory for a jab on monday.
I was supposed to cuddle her, hold her leg still, and talk to her to distract her while the nurse administered the jab.

She looked at me with those large, sweet eyes, and smiled as i spoke.

i felt like i was cheating her...

i mean, i didn't LIE to her. i was telling her that she's gonna take a jab and that it was good for her, and it'd be fine, but the TONE i was using was deceptive. It was those high-pitch, play-with-me type of tone.
Hence her trusting, relaxed demeanor. Hence her smile.

Then suddenly she wailed.

Ouch.

Sorry darling.

***
Glory's now 6 weeks old. And i'm in love.
I love the feeling of holding her close as i nurse her in bed, the way she snuggles in my bosom after burping. I love looking at her tiny features, and telling her how much i love each part of her, how God made her so beautifully.
I love the way she looks at me, her eyes all bright and smiley. Those moments are so magical - something in those eyes makes me feel she has a wisdom, compassion, understanding, gentleness that's beyond her years (or weeks), a depth that God has made.
Something in those eyes tells me that she knows i love her.
And those eyes are just so magnetic, so tugging, so mesmerizing.
***
On one of the nights, i heard her slurps and went over sleepily to her cot. Now, those guidebooks experts say that night feeds should be kept business-like, with minimal eye-contact and interaction. And i was happy with just proceeding with business as usual- feed, burp,bed. All i wanted was sleep, so i wasn't planning on cooing and playing every 2 hours in the night.

I came to her cot, pushed aside the mozzie net, and entered heaven.

She was wide awake, patiently waiting, and the moment our eyes met she broke into a sweet smile.

Gosh. That's cheating. You don't smile at me like THAT and expect me to proceed with business as usual.

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As i was saying, i'm in love.
Though i do long for a short break, though i do long for a 4 hour nap, though i do think about carefree holidays, spas, backpacking trips and spontaneous outings... this little girl has snuggled her way into my heart and claimed a permanent spot.

I'm in love.
Every song seemed to be about her. (especially with many songwriters' tendency to use "baby" in their songs. what izzit with them, they in love with ma baby too?)
Danny asked if i tear while watching her sleep. I joked it off.
But actually, sometimes i do.
And sometimes i cry while listening to silly sappy love songs.

Lyrics | Always Be My Baby lyrics