Last night, my nausea lifted during P&P! It was the first time I felt normal in the last 2 weeks, and gosh, it’s glorious! =) All through the day, right up to now, I’ve been feeling mostly fine, except for small pockets of nausea here and there, but boy, do I treasure these past 16 hours or so!
And to add on to this hippity-hoppity-happity day, someone left these 2 cute lil babies on my desk!
I like the one on the left! So super cute!
Later I found out that it was Anne who gave me the pics. She had those pics at her desk when she was pregnant, and decided to pass them to me so I can look at cute babies often. People kinda say that if a preggy looks at cute babies often, her baby will be cute as well… I checked out pics of her babies – Daniel and Asher, and they’re both duper-cute, so maybe it works ;)
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The tortures of the first trimester have been really draining so far.
I get morning sickness through the day, almost EVERY moment. My energy level dives – a simple day in school leaves me exhausted. Reading, using the computer, watching TV leaves me giddy and weak.
I have trouble sleeping at night - almost every hour, i wake up feeling just plain uncomfortable and frustrated.
I have horrendous food aversion. Even the thought of food makes me wanna cry and throw up. Yet, i have to make sure i get enough nutrients daily. Oh the torture of eating… followed by the torture of keeping the food in.
And I’m so super burpy, it’s like I’ve got an orchestra of frogs in me.
It's really weird for me... I'm so used to having a healthy body that rarely gives me any trouble. Now with all these first trimester symptoms, it's like having to learn to deal with a new, weak, perpetually sick body. What used to be simple is now a major exertion for the strange new weak pukey me.
Feels almost crippling, really.
The doctor said that i could go get an MC to rest when i need to. But this is quite different from a normal stomach upset, or flu, or sore throat, where a dose of medicine and a day of rest can solve the problem. This is gonna be with me perhaps for the next 6 weeks.
So i'm really unwilling to cut myself too much slack. If i succumb to an MC now, doesn't it mean over the next 6 weeks i'd constantly need to go on medical leave? If i cut myself too much slack now, doesn't it mean i'm just gonna slack through the next 7 months?
Seems like the only way to deal with this is to learn to cope with this strange new body - get accustomed to its weakness and weirdness, learn to force-feed myself nutritious food and psycho myself to keep the food in. Get used to the pukey feeling, and learn to go about daily duties in spite of it.
Or,
pray and ask God for a morning-sickness-free pregnancy. =)
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meanwhile, my colleagues have been so sweet. =) their words of comfort, support, advice, sharing their own experiences, their offers of practical help... and zf who drove me out to buy lunch and back to school again.... it really does make a difference to a dreary day!
i feel so blessed!! =) =)
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Oh, the one thing that marred this hippity-hoppity-happity day was…. Ermmm… Ifelldownthismorning… *blush*
Baby’s alright though, my hip/arm/knee took the rap.
But I guess it’s a clear warning for me to go shoe-shopping soon!
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