Are you still holding on?

Struggling may look ugly and feel uncomfortable.
I suppose we've all contemplated letting go, to just get washed along with the tide.
But we're meant to be different remember?
This world is not our home.

When i let go and drifted for awhile, did i cause you to stumble and drift?
When you let go and drifted, did you cause me to stumble and drift?
It must have had consequences.
Now when i look around, checking to see that you are around,
that question is still in my heart.

Who is around? Who's hanging on? Who's trying? Who's acting?
Who's in pain? Who's in anguish? Who's thriving? Whose is a bravado?

You whom i don't see. are you holding on?
where are you, c? where are you, k? where are you, x? where are you, a?
where are you b? and where are you, j? where are you y? where are you, d?
how much of it could i have shielded away had i been strong?

And you who have returned, i pray it'll be for good.
myself too.
i'm holding on.
He's real and worth holding on to.

How many more times will we let go?
How many times will we hurt so bad?

i don't know, but He who has begun the work in us,
He who called us out to live as aliens in this world,
to go against the current.
He.
He's gonna take us to the end, to finish the race.


Thanks Ps Tiak for praying for me today. I wondered if LY or Shirley or HP filled you in on what's going on in my life, or if it's God who told you, but regardless, you ministered to me today, spot on. Thank you!

and thanks, other dearests, for the chats and dinners and prayers.

God has given me words in season, revelations to help me make sense of what's going on in my life recently. i think the mind and heart part is settled. i just need a spring-cleaning to get rid of the lethargy. =)

we're on the way there...