Ermmm...Thanks...

Yay-hey! It's Friday!
What a week it's been...
Meaningful, revealing, sometimes upsetting, sometimes disappointing, sometimes filled with hope of a better tomorrow, sometimes filled with thoughts of what could have been and should have been...

Philippians 4
Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.


When faced with harsh and difficult situations, Paul didn't sulk or go into depression nor gave up his life mission. "Rejoice" he wrote.
Remember the reality of God, remember He is close by. Just pray, remember God is real, remember the things He has done and give thanks, and pray. Obey, and rest in God's peace.

Like... so simple ah?

Here we go then.... i shall not worry about the many things. i shall just give thanks for the week, and pray.

So, God Dearest, Thanks! Yeah, actually, the week has really been meaningful and precious. Although there were many incidents that i wished never happened, i suppose they were lessons for me and others.

I think a main thanksgiving would be the meet up with her. You know i needed it. and i thank You for it. so... was it the closure i need? Or did i even need a closure at all? Well, ministry-wise, meeting with her was like an extra-confirmation of what God said to me. i have peace, and i know what's the right thing to do. But mentorship-wise & relationally, i think it isn't closed, and it doesn't need to be closed. hehe... sounds like some "soul-tie" thingy, but i think it is not a bad thing that we need to discard, but a precious thing that is meant to be there. we have inherited a portion, we have received something into our spirits. And i still want to keep inheriting ... there's still so much more she's got that i want to learn!! so... i dunno... can it not be over? i'm still motherless leh...

And God, thanks for your faithfulness in her life. It's so amazing, the way you made everything that counts work out. Hearing about how you saved & reconciled her family really built my faith. You are so real!!! and so faithful!!! Bless her Lord... not just in her work and family, but in her relationship with you. Just let everything else fade away - be all resolved or just be peaceful for a season or something. Let her find that place again Lord. There, she's safe. There, she's strong. There, she can do great things with clear convictions and clear directions from your spirit, and lead so many others closer to you. Let her be There, God!!!

And i want to be There too... Sorry that sometimes i act as if you are not real- by being anxious, rying to work things out by my own strength or human wisdom, or by neglecting to pray. Really, the power-place is right at your feet. Remind me often, God, so that i may live victoriously.

And thank you, Holy Spirit, for illuminating the issues and helping me understand and see. You are really the best teacher and counsellor! i suppose through the last year or so, i've had to grow up a bit more... and i know that somehow i am still not really 100% ok... the sense of detachment, the wariness and weariness... the occasional rebellious thoughts and feelings.....
Help me to keep coming to you lord...u know how tempting it is to just give up and escape. but i know you will give me the grace and strength to persevere, to be wise, to be discerning, to be submissive and fruitful.

I want to be There.