Because it has once worked...

long long ago, during Chinese lessons, LMJ once told us the story of "Shou Zhu Dai Tu". can't really remember but i THINK it was about a man who was supposed to go hunting for pigs, but was lazy, so he sat under the tree, and a silly bunny came hopping along and knocked into the tree and fainted, or got trapped by the tree roots... and so the man got himself a yummy rabbit stew without having to work.

So he thot, "hey this is great." and he sat under that tree the next few years, but it never happened again, so he starved to death. something like that. wait... it sounds a bit lame, it's probably wrong, but the idea's there.

Anyway.

isn't this what everyone tends to do?

"i prayed this way once, and felt God's presence, hence from now on, let's always sing these songs/ pray these words/ use this tone/ use this volume?"
"we tried this once with the kids, and they grew. so let's forever write materials/have no games, just bible study/ have lots of games/have tuition/visit them more"
"i asked God, and He told me exactly what to do, so from now on, i won't do anything without hearing directly from him."

there isn't a right and wrong i guess, just that different situations call for different strategy. but how do we decide the strategy? by experience? by waiting for a revelation?

personally i like to have that very certain word from God. i somehow NEED to know that the way i've chosen is exactly God's plan. coz i've seen and experienced that Man can plot and plan, but it's always God's plans that prevails. An ounce of favour from God is worth more than 10million man-hours.

So i prefer to hear first, then act. does that make me a ShouZhuDaiTu-er? sit around till the bunny comes again? what if it never does?

but no... the fable doesn't really apply to this, i suppose. God's not a silly bunny, and he did say he would reveal his plans to his friends, so i am certain he intends for me to know his heart.

but the truth is, sometimes i dun hear, sometimes i dun wait. like samuel at the 1st 2 calls, like King saul when samuel was late. lack of intimacy, hence lack of revelation? i admit. lack of faith, and hence kan-cheong? i admit. But i need to hear you. i dun wanna run ahead in anxiety when i hear no commands from you.

without intimacy with u, jesus, i am a mere human.
i dun like to see with my own eyes. gimme your eyes again please?

oh and today, for a moment, i felt a lack of closure, and a motherless-ness, a mentorless-ness.

God reminded me He's my teacher, and of the power of prayer.

Ha, what a great gift he's given me, the gift of intercession and prayer. i dun use it enough.
i will. the world will be a better place.


oh, and, yesterday had WAGHAB gathering with jean, sarah n hp.
happy for hp... haha, first time i see her n danny in non-church setting together, and i like it. i like the way he looks at her, i like the way he obviously love her to bits and treasure everything about her - every strange quirky hp trait!
HP... i approve 102% =) =) haaaaa, he's God-given, not like the 301 guys i kept trying to make you consider!!! go get married! remember we're supposed to have kids at the same time!