love sick... Is it time for fire-side chairs yet?

Lost in you alone,

Is where i wanna be

To feel you near.

Softly in my ear,

You whisper words to me,

That i am yours..

Can't live a day without your presence,

closer to you i wanna be.

my heart cries out for more of you my lord,

my portion and hope

i close my eyes and feel you near,

there's nobody else who can take your place in my heart.

I can't sing to you now coz of my throat, but can you hear the song in my heart?
i miss you... i miss intimacy with you.

When i was afraid, i used to run to you. to hide, to cry, to vent. then you would show me yourself, and when i see your faithfulness, i knew i could go on.
When i was discouraged and weak, i ran to you. to complain, to "teh", sometimes throw tantrums... then you would show me visions, give me dreams, hopes. Sometimes your words of love would just send me into seventh heaven and i couldn't care less if the world sucked big time. you were enough.

it looked as if those were tough times, but when i had you near, everything was ok deep inside.

How long has it been since i last felt afraid? has it been so long that i mistakenly think i am strong enough on my own?
And have i grown so used to bearing burdens on my shoulders that they no longer send me scurrying to your arms? Have i learnt to toughen my shoulders so much that my heart has hardened as well?

Don't ever let it happen Lord! i want to grow to be a better servant and child. i want to be someone you can trust with your work and your church and your people. i want to be more effective in helping my students get your Best Blessing, i want to be able to make a great impact in the children's lives, and their families. i want to be able to lead the Kidz leaders with consistency and be dependable. i want to be able to cope with the uncertainties, and not have thoughts of giving up when discouraged. i want to be so in tune with you and your plans and be able to encourage the team and inspire them to live for you.

i am working on these lord... and i know you are molding me, refining, teaching me. and i am thankful.

but most of ALL.
MOST of ALL.
MOSTEST MOSTEST of ALL...

i simply need you.

i just want to sit with you, and have you tell me non-ministry things again. like i am your woman. make the verses come alive again by speaking them to me personally. make me smile the whole night n feel so much joy that i can't sleep.

i can't help needing you jesus. i was made for you.

can we have the turtle-dove, fireside chair season again soon?

Please?

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