Woke up this morning feeling rested. Upon checking the clock, i realized i managed to sleep for almost 4 continuous hours! Plus, I wasn't feeling pukey, i actually felt well!! Happily thanked God.
I wanted to nudge the sleeping munch and ask him, "Ay, Righteous Man, you prayed for me ah?"
But I felt God calling me to speak with Him first.
So i struggled with God. Over my heart.
He won.
I asked Him to add water to my hardened clay. There were so many unyielding knots. Yet, I know He IS the potter. I am the clay.
Can i say to Him, "Please, i don't want to be used in hard labour. I don't want to be something that doesn't see fruits fast. I want it to be just fun and light work."?
No. He is the potter.
So i confessed my unyieldedness and put myself into His hands.
Will settled, and heart surrendered, I asked Him about ministry.
He gave me 3 + 3 persons to love.
What does that mean?
Do first, then I'll understand.
(ermmmm... so, please dun ask me yet kae? thanks for your patience so far...)
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
For the Love of ONE Madman
It was a long day. Jesus had spent the day teaching multitudes about the kingdom of heaven. (And we who teach should know how exhausting that would be. )
Yet, He didn't check into an inn for some shut-eye. He didn't say, "That's it for today!" and take a well-deserved rest. He still had something important to do. Important enough for him to forego rest. Important enough for him to cross the lake (no, it wasn't "along the way").
He was so tired that he would have slept through the squall, had his disciples not waken him up.
And when he finally got there, he delivered and ministered to a demon-possessed man.
Then he crossed the lake again, and continued healing and ministering to people - the lady with the blood problem, the girl who died....
****
What is man, that You are mindful of us?
Why were You always able to love others more than Yourself?
How is it You could give and love, even when we hurt and despise You?
Jesus is like that.
I need to grow in Christ-likeness.
****
Last Sunday, Pastor Tiak mentioned something about being discouraged, and returning to fishing for fish, instead of fishing for men.
Struck me.
For some time, i have been more conscious of the fleshly world than the spiritual realm.
Life has never been so mundane.
Why like that???
This mustn't go on.
Walk with your feet on the ground, but with eyes on the spiritual realm, girl. You know that's the only way to live.
****
When swamped by morning sickness and ill health, pregnancy seems to be just about that yucky miserable feeling.
Yet when i get to see Baby, when i see Baby grow, move, dance,
The perspective changes.
Haven't been keeping my eyes on the vision.
Need your perspective to be reloaded again, Lord.
****
A thousand times I’ve failed
Still Your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
I’m caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never endingYour glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out…
*****
Jesus, would You cross the lake and come rescue me again?
This One Mad Girl?
Change me from the inside out, draw me closer to you, never let me take my eyes off You and Your Kingdom.
Yet, He didn't check into an inn for some shut-eye. He didn't say, "That's it for today!" and take a well-deserved rest. He still had something important to do. Important enough for him to forego rest. Important enough for him to cross the lake (no, it wasn't "along the way").
He was so tired that he would have slept through the squall, had his disciples not waken him up.
And when he finally got there, he delivered and ministered to a demon-possessed man.
Then he crossed the lake again, and continued healing and ministering to people - the lady with the blood problem, the girl who died....
****
What is man, that You are mindful of us?
Why were You always able to love others more than Yourself?
How is it You could give and love, even when we hurt and despise You?
Jesus is like that.
I need to grow in Christ-likeness.
****
Last Sunday, Pastor Tiak mentioned something about being discouraged, and returning to fishing for fish, instead of fishing for men.
Struck me.
For some time, i have been more conscious of the fleshly world than the spiritual realm.
Life has never been so mundane.
Why like that???
This mustn't go on.
Walk with your feet on the ground, but with eyes on the spiritual realm, girl. You know that's the only way to live.
****
When swamped by morning sickness and ill health, pregnancy seems to be just about that yucky miserable feeling.
Yet when i get to see Baby, when i see Baby grow, move, dance,
The perspective changes.
Haven't been keeping my eyes on the vision.
Need your perspective to be reloaded again, Lord.
****
A thousand times I’ve failed
Still Your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
I’m caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never endingYour glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out…
*****
Jesus, would You cross the lake and come rescue me again?
This One Mad Girl?
Change me from the inside out, draw me closer to you, never let me take my eyes off You and Your Kingdom.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Baby's a Dancer!
Just got back from the gynae, and today, Baby's much bigger - about 2.5 cm!
Was really down (and weepy =P ) from the physical ordeals this week, but the moment Baby appeared on the screen, it all felt worthwhile.
Dr Joycelyn pointed out the heartbeat, and while we were marvelling at how much Baby has grown, Baby surprised us with a little dance!
First the arms/legs/body,
then the head started bobbing too!!!!!
=) =)
For those who were from Kidz Club from waaayyyy back, it kinda reminded me of Munch's caterpillar crawl =)
I soooo wish to put a lil CCTV camera inside me, so i can watch Baby dance all the time.
Love him/her!!
No video of the dance to share, but here's the latest pic!!
he/she has grown so much since the last picture right!
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