Oops! I did it again...

Sheesh.

Clumsy me. I will walk slowly and hold on to the hand rail.

I will walk slowly and hold on to the hand rail.

I will walk slowly and hold on to the hand rail.
I will walk slowly and hold on to the hand rail.
I will walk slowly and hold on to the hand rail.
I will walk slowly and hold on to the hand rail.
I will walk slowly and hold on to the hand rail.
I will walk slowly and hold on to the hand rail.
I will walk slowly and hold on to the hand rail.
I will walk slowly and hold on to the hand rail.

Polly put the kettle on, Sukey take it off again

Polly Put the Kettle On
Polly put the kettle on,
Polly put the kettle on,
We'll all have tea.

Sukey take it off again,
Sukey take it off again,
Sukey take it off again,
They've all gone away.

That nursery rhyme started playing in my head this afternoon.
I had submitted an application to do my masters on scholarship around noon, only to take it back again in the late afternoon.

I have to admit there IS a degree of disappointment…
My itching ears longed to hear, “Yes, go ahead, go do it next year, and then start changing the world!”

It’s not as thrilling to hear that it’s not time yet.

But there is wisdom in his advice.
So I’m taking it. And waiting. Some more.

Not that there is nothing to prepare for meanwhile.
To my (simplistic) mind, my battle plan was simply:

1. Identify Target (Change the World)
2. Go to school to learn how to do it (Masters in Public Policy)
3. Just do it (How to? Dunno. Will know how after I’ve gone to school and learned)

While Polly and bosses were having a chat, I was reminded that there has to be other preparations, other learning, other steps that have to be taken to equip myself better.

I suppose the schooling part is just the “know-how”. What about the other skills I need to have before that? The character? The tenacity? The experience? The exposure? I should start developing those now…

Frankly, I have no concrete plans on how to develop THOSE. I’m one of those whose solution is always to pray, get books on that topic, and read up. But I have also learnt through experience that sometimes those aren’t real learning – it becomes deep learning and a part of me only when I’ve gone through trials and testings. And books can’t do that.

Which leaves us with the hard work of learning through hard work. And grit.

Which is not Polly the Drifter’s cup of tea.

But it has to be done, and I’m glad that at times when I’d rather drift and take things easy, I have bosses and leaders forcing and encouraging me to go on. And I’m glad too that God has never let me get so jaded that I would settle for less in the long run.

If anything, filling up that application has done me some good. It made me think through and articulate my aspirations and how I hope to achieve them. Seriously, I know many people would find what I wrote idealistic, even spacey. But as I filled out that application, I’m glad to find that I still believe and I still hope and I still want to try.

As Angie puts it, with God, chances are different.

Impossible is nothing.

Delivery Day!

Today was Delivery Day...
We bundled the Baby up in a brown envelope, sealed it tight, and sent it away.

Yups, after many months of NE programs, many weeks of report writing, many days of typing, we finally saw our Baby today!
And what a joy it is, to see it completed, signed, sealed & (almost) delivered! =)

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On Sunday, Ps Tiak preached on Ps 23, about how we can choose to grow through hard times.

1. Turn to God's Presence

2. Trust in God's Promises

3. Take on God's Perspective.

Which is so so true.

Been reading a book, Sacred Parenting by Gary L Thomas, which is quite different from most other parenting books. It's not about the how-to's of parenting, but about taking on God's perspective. And my soul was quietened somewhat. So, for disgruntled, reluctant, fearful or pained parents/parents-to-be, do read it! (i'm at the last chapter...can borrow from me soon!)

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Amazingly, i'm already halfway through my pregnancy! Yippee!!

Before school started, i tried on my work-clothes and found that most of them still fitted. So i thought i could just make do with my 4 maternity pants...

But an explosion took place on the inside of me... it was...

so sudden!

Once we got into the first day of 2008 , my belly started swelling big time. And the shirts that fitted so well just a couple of days ago were now so stretched across the belly.

I used to like the look of pregnant women. I used to admire their bumps, the roundness of it.

Well, i still do, but not on me.

It just looks and feels weird!!

oh well, but we ARE halfway there. =)

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Ohhh, and a dear friend just found out she's preggy too!!! =)

So happy for her, and so happy for me (i've got company) and so happy for my baby (she's got company too!)!!

But i'm not saying who, coz she still wants it embargoed....

so meanwhile, happy guessing!!!!

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