You could threaten me, and command me to do something.
You could negotiate and entice me to do it.
You could explain and convince me to do it.
I could "psycho" myself, and pretend it's enjoyable.
I could convince myself the need to do something.
I could simply cling on, and fulfill my committment,
clinging on because i know i believe in the cause.
But things are just easier when i am inspired.
When not only do i know i believe in it,
but i also feel it in my bones,
in every sinew.
Breathe on me, God...
That's something only You can do...
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
the road is long...
Retire at 67, die at 80?
that gives me another 39 years to work, and another 52 years to live.
Ha... and to think that i was just looking at the obituaries, wondering when would be my turn to rest.Not that i hate living... just that it would also be nice to know that i have done i all i was supposed to and can proceed to enjoy eternity in heaven.
Can't imagine working for another 39 years!
Gross.
It's like thinking you're on Round 3 of your 2.4k run, then finding out that
1. You're only on round 2
2. You're doing the 10k run instead.
Which reminds me, today, there was yet another report of a sudden-death-after-exercise case. =(
i've come to the conclusion that the human body is not meant to do overly strenuous exercise. I think that's why so many healthy people have been dropping dead after exercises.
Incidentally, why would people need to run 21km anyway? take a cab la. And if like, during wartime, all our tanks break down and the poor soldiers need to get to a destination 21km away in a very short time, mabbe they can try cycling instead of running? then they would still have energy left to fight. And can even carry heavy things. And it would be faster.
A regular 5km jog every day should be enough to keep them fit. Why keep pushing for unnatural limits?
that gives me another 39 years to work, and another 52 years to live.
Ha... and to think that i was just looking at the obituaries, wondering when would be my turn to rest.Not that i hate living... just that it would also be nice to know that i have done i all i was supposed to and can proceed to enjoy eternity in heaven.
Can't imagine working for another 39 years!
Gross.
It's like thinking you're on Round 3 of your 2.4k run, then finding out that
1. You're only on round 2
2. You're doing the 10k run instead.
Which reminds me, today, there was yet another report of a sudden-death-after-exercise case. =(
i've come to the conclusion that the human body is not meant to do overly strenuous exercise. I think that's why so many healthy people have been dropping dead after exercises.
Incidentally, why would people need to run 21km anyway? take a cab la. And if like, during wartime, all our tanks break down and the poor soldiers need to get to a destination 21km away in a very short time, mabbe they can try cycling instead of running? then they would still have energy left to fight. And can even carry heavy things. And it would be faster.
A regular 5km jog every day should be enough to keep them fit. Why keep pushing for unnatural limits?
Thursday, August 23, 2007
要有 ｌｉｆｅ 才可以 ｍａｋｅ ｌｉｆｅ 哦！
this evening, mum called.
mum: 你还在学校啊？
me: ya...still in school.
mum:那么迟了还在学校？几时回来吃晚餐？
me: these few days are quite packed...cannot lae...
mum: 你啊，不要忙到没有ｌｉｆｅ．要有 ｌｉｆｅ，才可以 ｍａｋｅ ｌｉｆｅ 知道吗？
me: Ma! You called me just to tell me that???
mum: ya lor...你知道我的意思吗？ｍｕｎｃｈ 呢？他会不会一样忙？
me: *faint*
She then proceeded to tell me that munch and i have to make time to ermmm... make babies.
Grrrrr...
Am i ready?
one morning, munch and i visualised having a baby. We imagined the pregnancy, the delivery, the carrying...but after a few minutes we were ready to stop.
How to take care of a baby for real?
How to take care of a baby and know that it's a long term commitment??
ａｍ ｉ ｒｅａｄｙ？
will i ever be?
mum: 你还在学校啊？
me: ya...still in school.
mum:那么迟了还在学校？几时回来吃晚餐？
me: these few days are quite packed...cannot lae...
mum: 你啊，不要忙到没有ｌｉｆｅ．要有 ｌｉｆｅ，才可以 ｍａｋｅ ｌｉｆｅ 知道吗？
me: Ma! You called me just to tell me that???
mum: ya lor...你知道我的意思吗？ｍｕｎｃｈ 呢？他会不会一样忙？
me: *faint*
She then proceeded to tell me that munch and i have to make time to ermmm... make babies.
Grrrrr...
Am i ready?
one morning, munch and i visualised having a baby. We imagined the pregnancy, the delivery, the carrying...but after a few minutes we were ready to stop.
How to take care of a baby for real?
How to take care of a baby and know that it's a long term commitment??
ａｍ ｉ ｒｅａｄｙ？
will i ever be?
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
LKYSPP Public Lecture: Islam and Public Policy
Note: Don't bother reading this... i'm just rambling to record my thots.
Attended a public lecture today...
Enjoyed it, it made me think, and it was nice that the speaker wasn't an academic, but a passionate activist.
4 issues to ponder:
1. Constitution law vs religious laws. Is it fair to subject non-believers to the religious laws? Is it fair to have constitutional laws apply to non-believers and religious laws apply to believers? Would it result in unfairness?
2. Freedom of religion. Some say apostasy is punishable by death. Others say there is no compulsion. Some suggest looking at the diversity of approaches and find one that will best help society to progress, given current context. (settle on one for convenience? the absolute morality-ist would never agree!)
3. Public morality: Who decides? Popular opinion (democracy)? Divine law (which Divinity?) ?
4. Women's Right. (Errr... not my current interest)
I considered things in my context - Christian Singaporean.
No issues with #1. Here, clearly constitutional laws prevail. Where biblical standards are over and above our laws, it's definitely left to the church to handle and not imposed by threats of punishment. For example, grumbling, failing to submit to leaders, husband etc.
No issues with #2. We're never instructed in the bible to punish unbelievers nor those who commit apostasy. Speak to them, try to turn them from error, at most "have nothing to do with them." We are still to love, and given a chance, to restore.
No issues with #4. Women are made by God, different from Men, but equal in worth.
It's #3 that needs to be considered. Public morality.
To me of course, there is no doubt that divine law is superior to human choice aka democracy.
But not everyone agrees with that. Moreover, not everyone who agrees to the sovereignty of divine law agrees to the same set of divine law, AND interpret them in the same way.
Because of a pluralistic society, there can never be a satisfactory answer!
Do we then just settle for the Law being merely a reflection of a society's norm or for a perceived common good? (and then again, the perception of common good would differ)
I thought about Jesus' way.
He didn't do it via legislation, politics, power, force, violence.
He was personal about it, he was concerned about people, not theory.
He didn't start a women-lib movement, nor legislate laws. But he demonstrated love for women, and he educated.
Perhaps therein lies our solution.
We live as salt and light of the world. We live as contagious Christians. We let Jesus, the Holy Spirit, the Word shape us, and when the law reflects our ideals and norms, we will find that we have a set of laws that brings light to our soul.
Attended a public lecture today...
Enjoyed it, it made me think, and it was nice that the speaker wasn't an academic, but a passionate activist.
4 issues to ponder:
1. Constitution law vs religious laws. Is it fair to subject non-believers to the religious laws? Is it fair to have constitutional laws apply to non-believers and religious laws apply to believers? Would it result in unfairness?
2. Freedom of religion. Some say apostasy is punishable by death. Others say there is no compulsion. Some suggest looking at the diversity of approaches and find one that will best help society to progress, given current context. (settle on one for convenience? the absolute morality-ist would never agree!)
3. Public morality: Who decides? Popular opinion (democracy)? Divine law (which Divinity?) ?
4. Women's Right. (Errr... not my current interest)
I considered things in my context - Christian Singaporean.
No issues with #1. Here, clearly constitutional laws prevail. Where biblical standards are over and above our laws, it's definitely left to the church to handle and not imposed by threats of punishment. For example, grumbling, failing to submit to leaders, husband etc.
No issues with #2. We're never instructed in the bible to punish unbelievers nor those who commit apostasy. Speak to them, try to turn them from error, at most "have nothing to do with them." We are still to love, and given a chance, to restore.
No issues with #4. Women are made by God, different from Men, but equal in worth.
It's #3 that needs to be considered. Public morality.
To me of course, there is no doubt that divine law is superior to human choice aka democracy.
But not everyone agrees with that. Moreover, not everyone who agrees to the sovereignty of divine law agrees to the same set of divine law, AND interpret them in the same way.
Because of a pluralistic society, there can never be a satisfactory answer!
Do we then just settle for the Law being merely a reflection of a society's norm or for a perceived common good? (and then again, the perception of common good would differ)
I thought about Jesus' way.
He didn't do it via legislation, politics, power, force, violence.
He was personal about it, he was concerned about people, not theory.
He didn't start a women-lib movement, nor legislate laws. But he demonstrated love for women, and he educated.
Perhaps therein lies our solution.
We live as salt and light of the world. We live as contagious Christians. We let Jesus, the Holy Spirit, the Word shape us, and when the law reflects our ideals and norms, we will find that we have a set of laws that brings light to our soul.
Monday, August 20, 2007
BAd Mood Monday. Couldn't you tell?
1. Been stuck in something uninspiring and time-consuming. It's frustrating. Wish it'd end. And it soon will. Ironically, that makes it even more uninspiring. Agh.
2. Watched a clip by Martyn See that carista posted on her blog. It's also on singaporerebel.
Agree that the needy needs help. Think he would have made more of a contribution to society if he used his talents to stir up awareness and compassion, not finger-pointing and insinuations. But in any case, i don't think his portrayal was a fair one.
First, i don't think every case of poverty/ old people having or wanting to work is the government's fault.
Plus, I think there's a limit to what the government and big organisations etc can do. They have a part to play, and are responsible for providing the infrastructure and systems - like public housing and CPF etc. But there will definitely be some who fall through the cracks.
I believe that the duty of loving and caring for these people lies with all of us and not just the government. I believe that VWOs, and compassionate individuals who feel the ground and truly love people, are able to help at a more targetted and timely manner.
So, really, the finger points at us. At me. At you. Let's do something about their needs, not figure out whose fault it is.
3. Quite like the PM's National Day Rally. Especially the 30 year HDB lease for old folks thingy. That's cool. and helpful. But still no pay raise for me =(
Plus, really, the work life balance thing still hasn't been fulfilled properly. But it looks like it's gonna be forgotten soon.
4. Drank too much BS water. Now LS. =( Was marking and LS-ing the weekend away... and i am exhausted. =( I want the hols to be here...
5. N Levels and O levels are coming up. Activities and projects are unending. Help.
2. Watched a clip by Martyn See that carista posted on her blog. It's also on singaporerebel.
Agree that the needy needs help. Think he would have made more of a contribution to society if he used his talents to stir up awareness and compassion, not finger-pointing and insinuations. But in any case, i don't think his portrayal was a fair one.
First, i don't think every case of poverty/ old people having or wanting to work is the government's fault.
Plus, I think there's a limit to what the government and big organisations etc can do. They have a part to play, and are responsible for providing the infrastructure and systems - like public housing and CPF etc. But there will definitely be some who fall through the cracks.
I believe that the duty of loving and caring for these people lies with all of us and not just the government. I believe that VWOs, and compassionate individuals who feel the ground and truly love people, are able to help at a more targetted and timely manner.
So, really, the finger points at us. At me. At you. Let's do something about their needs, not figure out whose fault it is.
3. Quite like the PM's National Day Rally. Especially the 30 year HDB lease for old folks thingy. That's cool. and helpful. But still no pay raise for me =(
Plus, really, the work life balance thing still hasn't been fulfilled properly. But it looks like it's gonna be forgotten soon.
4. Drank too much BS water. Now LS. =( Was marking and LS-ing the weekend away... and i am exhausted. =( I want the hols to be here...
5. N Levels and O levels are coming up. Activities and projects are unending. Help.
Lastly...
Sorry if i was nasty meany bitchy today. It's not you ok? It's me.Tuesday, August 14, 2007
One rewarding moment
Today we launched the cafe.
My boys were involved and i am so pleased with them =)
If only to see how they rose to the occasion and did themselves and the school proud, i think the eeky meetings were worth it.
I always knew they could.
Today i'm happy.
Not because they showed the various VIPs they could,
but because they showed themselves.
I'm proud of you.
And i'm not "just saying it".
=)
My boys were involved and i am so pleased with them =)
If only to see how they rose to the occasion and did themselves and the school proud, i think the eeky meetings were worth it.
I always knew they could.
Today i'm happy.
Not because they showed the various VIPs they could,
but because they showed themselves.
I'm proud of you.
And i'm not "just saying it".
=)
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
28
Wow... another year has passed!
This year's birthday wasn't as dramatic as last year's, yet in another way, it was just as traumatic. In a fun way of coz.;)
For posterity...
Paragon with Peck, Sarah n Jeanette.
(And Danny, S & C.)
We got us our pets =)
crazy mess, but then u can't blame me. it was national day celebrations day.
Spot the BS water?
See Tazzy? I hugged it all the way home, to the envy of every kid i met on the way.
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
Monday, August 06, 2007
Evil me
i feel evil coz i made the teachers busy with national day celebrations during Term 3.
=(
dun enjoy making us even busier, but it's necessary i guess. Don't want the next generation to be rootless and prideless and apathetic.
If only i can perform the Patriotus Spell and make every student patriotic.
Hmmm... if i could, would i? should i?
What's the difference between nurturing pride, feelings of affection etc and brainwashing?
Friday, August 03, 2007
Hossan Leong at NZ NE Seminar
On Wednesday, i attended (yet another) NE Seminar and..... Hossan Leong performed!
Heee, years back (when i was a Club Ecstasy fan, loved S-Club-Seven, and wrote gay-lib letters to the press), i thought Hossan Leong was cute. =)
(incidentally, i knew i was a grown-up when i started thinking lim yu beng is sexy.)
After Hossan's performance, he walked right past me (i had front row seat!!! Weeeee!) and i was so tempted to ask to take a pic with him!!! But i bit my tongue, reminded myself that i'm closer to 30 than 13, and controlled myself .
But i did take some vids of him!!! =)
lousy quality recording, but here we go!
and he sang "I live in Singapura".
But that video i took doesn't do the song justice.
Here's the MTV!
Now i have a strange urge to listen to my Club Ecstasy albums....
ha..... =)
Heee, years back (when i was a Club Ecstasy fan, loved S-Club-Seven, and wrote gay-lib letters to the press), i thought Hossan Leong was cute. =)
(incidentally, i knew i was a grown-up when i started thinking lim yu beng is sexy.)
After Hossan's performance, he walked right past me (i had front row seat!!! Weeeee!) and i was so tempted to ask to take a pic with him!!! But i bit my tongue, reminded myself that i'm closer to 30 than 13, and controlled myself .
But i did take some vids of him!!! =)
lousy quality recording, but here we go!
and he sang "I live in Singapura".
But that video i took doesn't do the song justice.
Here's the MTV!
Now i have a strange urge to listen to my Club Ecstasy albums....
ha..... =)
Thursday, August 02, 2007
Laugh Somemore!
Been trying to recover from a bout of flu and sore throat since Sunday.
It's hard, especially since we're on our feet most of the time and have to speak loud enough for everyone in the class. Plus battle with noises.
Which leaves me straining with all my might to teach.
And then they still dun bring books to school.
And then they still wanna talk in class.
And then they still laugh when i zhao-sia.
Hmph.
Pass my flu to you then u know erh. Laugh somemore.
It's hard, especially since we're on our feet most of the time and have to speak loud enough for everyone in the class. Plus battle with noises.
Which leaves me straining with all my might to teach.
And then they still dun bring books to school.
And then they still wanna talk in class.
And then they still laugh when i zhao-sia.
Hmph.
Pass my flu to you then u know erh. Laugh somemore.
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